Bravely, deeply, from the depths of my soul, and my beloved pet Oreo’s soul, who has now crossed to The Other Side.
Here’s how it goes.
I came home one evening, unable to find Oreo in the house. Minutes later, after having frantically looked everywhere for her, I finally checked downstairs, and I saw my black and white beauty, in dire, grave condition, after having fallen from the 7th floor while I was away.
Her jaw was scraped. She was hunched over in tremendous pain. She was heaving, as if her lungs were failing her from the brutal impact of the fall, and the suffering she was going through as a result. She had peed herself, from the shock.
But she was there, waiting for me to find her.
And when I did, I just could not believe that she was still alive.
She was conscious, and recognized me, meowed in the sweet way she always does to me…
And then she looked at me with those still, big loving eyes, wanting to say good bye.
I picked her up and held her closely in my arms, crying over her for what felt like eternity, but it was just mere moments, before I brought her back upstairs. She had trouble walking, and she was not going to hold much longer, but she did what any loving pet would do. Pee in the litterbox one last time. Walk around the living room. Say good-bye to her dear brother Tima, and her sister Flow, in anticipation of what she already knew would happen – her Ascent to the Other Side.
I took her to the vet, but her precious, fragile little body could not sustain for long after the fall (it’s a miracle she held out for as long as she did…)
After a few hours, they called me to come back and say my good-byes, because there was nothing more they could do for her, aside from the life support still keeping her alive – the oxygen chamber.
When I got there, at 5:32 AM, it was as if she came back to life for those last few minutes we had together. She meowed so loud, to announce her love, even through the searing pain of her lungs giving out on her, beckoning me close. I held her, and in those last few moments we spent together, we grew very still, and very quiet. We connected through our hearts, and said what needed to be said, before she started convulsing from the pain, and the doctors intervened with an injection to finally end her suffering.
By 5:45, she was gone. But she waited for me, again, to come and see her, and make sure I get to say a final goodbye, and be with her through life and death, for even death could not do us part…
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In those moments of death, by her side, I realized the profundity and fragility of life, more than anything.
For a week or two after, I was in total darkness, at the bottom of a deep, dark well. I had a lot of intense things going on in my life, and following those, plus a very difficult separation, another move to a new place, and now being face to face with death, I was searching for where I could find the Inner Strength to keep going when everything had collapsed around me.
In a sense, I felt just like Oreo, knocked down to the ground by tragic circumstances, too many of life’s blows to even count, and holding on to the last breath of life, wondering if I would make it.
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The light came back in, when I focused on the gift of Love that she was to me, and what she was trying to teach me through all this.
Why were these concepts of death, and destruction, and suffering coming up for me to look at through Oreo?
She is a hero to me in so many ways.
She taught me that there is something very sacred, and divine, in experiencing suffering. It’s not there to punish us, or for us to be stuck in it. Our hearts hurt deeply, when we suffer. But there’s another layer to it (and please please pay attention, as what I’m about to say can be grossly misunderstood).
When we go through suffering, it can come from a place of Love. We go through suffering only so we could rise back up. We live in a world of Duality, so we could appreciate one aspect and its opposite. Light and Dark. Up and Down. Yin and Yang. Pain and Love.
There is something about being willing to go through the darkness, in order to re-experience glory. It’s a rising angel process, a proverbial phoenix rising from the ashes, better, stronger, transformed in the process.
The fall into pain and darkness is what breaks our heart, but what we tend to forget is that it serves to set us up for the rise, so we could love stronger. When we feel suffering within ourselves, and within the people and pets that we love, we have to learn to say thank you… For being willing to set ourselves up for a rise. Thank you, for being willing to dive deep into pain, so you can know love; deep into darkness, so you can see light; deep into yourself, so you can know another.
As my good friend said, “Love is the one Truth we’re willing to go through anything for. It is the Rising that is our Birthright.”
That is a Hero’s Journey.
She could not have a rise, without a fall. In her suffering, she was hanging on to see me, and she wasn’t ready to go yet, so she could impart this knowledge and understanding to me.
It’s really beautiful, generous, loving and kind, what she did for me, out of love…
When I rescued her from the streets of Toronto, she was terribly afraid of humans. It took me hours to coax her towards me. Likely because she had been abused before by humans, she didn’t trust them.
And yet, when I met her, even in her fear (pain), she simply wanted to be loved, so she was willing to give it a chance.
She let me in to her heart.
But it’s that descent into the darkness, the pain that she was in before she met me, that allowed her to love me so deeply. She REALLY loved me, because she had the contrast to go down into suffering, and to rise back up WITH ME during our 4 years together.
Even the bad, and the dark, and the ugly is serving the good, allowing us the full spectrum of experience of LIFE in its fullest glory. She was so, SO brave.
To engage in that much suffering in her short little life, in order to rise up to Love, so starkly. It really is a hero’s journey … The ultimate Descent, for the ultimate Rise.
She offered me some of the greatest gifts I could ever ask for: compassion, companionship, and deep profound love. She always encouraged me to feel into my gifts, and share them with the world, as she did her gifts, with me.
When hearing of her passing, many people reached out to me to let me know that they were thankful they had met her during my Intuitive Readings (I do them through Skype).
Every time I would intuitively read for someone (one of my divine gifts), she would hop on my lap, and be there with me, assisting me in the guiding process. Many people that I have read for, have met her, for she would share her essence and love on the screen with them.
I am humbled and honored to have had such a deeply loving friend and companion to love me, care for me, be with me through it all, and be so brave as to teach me what she did.
Here is How I Want to Pay It Forward…
- I decided that for the next little while, I will be offering Intuitive Readings on a first-come-first-serve basis.
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